Two Sunsets

This is me. On the beach, where I am working. Good, yes? Brilliant is what I would call it. The best beach in the WORLD!

Except that I'm working in an office 50 meters from this stunning beach. The water is lovely at this time of the year too... but the beach is crowded with families now too. I can't wait till February when the sea is warm, the sun is hot and there is hardly anyone there!

Last year was a tough year, but I got through it and am shining on the other end. I am really looking forward to this year! It can only look up! I hope everyone had a lovely new years. I was sitting on that beach up there, watching the full moon rise over the glassy water that was glowing pink and purple from the sky... a boat sailed past, then a flock of birds, and then a little blue penguin cruised up the beach. It was so picturesque. I wish I had my camera with me.

It's nice being away from internet and cell phone too... you can just enjoy the simple things again.

xx

Love and Loss

The worst thing ever happened last night. Gran died 2 minutes after I called my parents asking about her. I miss her so much already.

Two Monday's ago, my aunt also passed away from a long battle with breast cancer. I had seen her two days before she passed, and I swear I never want to see another person die of cancer. It has to be the most horrible thing in the world.

I've been out of reach of internet and cell phone access for the past 3 weeks, but have been coming out for these incidents. The funeral for my gran is on Tuesday. I can't believe she's died... she's supposed to not die.

My tear ducts are either dried up or too proud at the moment. I just wish death wasn't such a horrible thing. I love you Gran, and always will. x

Too late for lovers

Photo by me. From a shoot I did earlier in the year.

I'm heading to Nelson tomorrow. Gong on the ferry early morning, get in late morning to Picton, then take a bus to Nelson from Picton. Someone will pick me up from the bus stop.

My aunt is pretty bad at the moment. She's hanging by threads. I'm scared that she'll die when I'm there. I know that I have a funeral to go to over summer, it's just a matter of when.

Anyway, Just to let you know this will be the last of my posts for a while. :)

Stay with me

Another gorgeous shot by mediocre-matt.

In one week I will be heading off to Totaranui, the beautiful place I will be working all summer. Unfortunately (or fortunately, if you are my parents) there will be no internet or cell phone reception. I'm thinking of it as being a theraputic time, away from most technologies (I'm bringing my laptop and movies!) I'll be able to concentrate on other things.

I'm planning on running along the beach each day until I'm fit enough to run on the sand right along the beach (2km) without stopping. This is all in a master plan to get into the Air Force as a IO Psychologist, where they pay for me to get my Masters degree. All they need in return is to work year for year they paid for me at uni, plus one extra year. I'm thinking it would be a good place to find a nice man too. I'd have to do a 12 week training course which is all fitness and stuff, that everyone has to do... I'm not fit. I'm not a sporty kind of person. But it could be interesting.

Mum loves that I am thinking about applying for the air force. My mum, dad and brother all have their Private Pilots licences and my brother is doing aeronautical engineering with Air NZ, and I have always held that I would never do anything to do with Flying (because I am my own self thankyou very much *stomps foot*). But this sounds too good to be true. And it probably is. They only have about 6 Psychologists working for them, so it will be hard to get in to.

Anyway, if I don't blog before I go into the wilderness, I hope everyone has a good November, and a Merry Christmas. Hopefully I will be able to blog, but who knows at the moment?

Love xx

Skipalong

How good is 500 Days of Summer? It's so beautifully crafted, and every shot looks like a beautiful photograph.

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

"Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life. May 23rd was a Wednesday."

I love those movies that are so real, but make you think... what if you did talk to that guy in the coffee shop briefly?

You Again

These beautiful images are from mediocre-matt on DeviantART. He seems to have such an eye for taking beautiful photos with gorgeous lighting. I love this. Many of his photos are beauty shots. They make me happy.

In other news, I bought Frankie Magazine's "The Photo Album" Issue - it's so inspirational and has some really gorgeous shots. Makes me want to go take photos right now, but I have to study for finals.

Trouble is a Friend

How beautiful are these photos from _cassia_ on Flickr? She seems to have an awesome colouring approach to her photos that make them look old and pastel. Beautiful. And they make me happy. She also has two etsy shops: Lola's Room and Cassia Beck Vintage Inspired Photography. I know I would love to own one (or three) of these to hang above my bed.

Right now I'm studying hard (hehe) on my psychology courses... I have to finish writing notes for this course before the end of today! I'm also half dreading and half excited about the return to Wellington this Sunday. Really don't want to deal with my flatmates, but really want to see other friends before they head home for summer.

Hope everyone is having a good week so far. :) x

Travel in Time

New Hair! - I decided to go a little lighter for summer so she put really subtle foils through it. I really like it and it feels so much more healthy. Note the fake ray-bans I got for $30.
Now I wanna fill you in on a little one of my favourite products. St Ives Swiss Vanilla Body Wash and Moisturiser. It smells SO great and feels like silk. So lovely.

I also bought these heels... they're like T-bars but heels! And actually quite comfortable. I thought it was about time I invested in some good black heels. I also saved on buying a sequened black vest. Kinda obsessed with sequins at the moment.

Charlie

I am loving covering books at the moment, and I really need to buy some brown paper, some material and get my crafty hands out to cover my books I've got lying around. They really do make an interesting look, and makes them look uniform as well! I have a bunch of bright orange penguin classics that look horrible by themselves, but covered like this would be so cute! Book covers from Book City Jackets.

Also slightly dying inside for these cute necklaces. All from Wildpair. That also means I need to go and buy that jewelery holder that I liked so much...

I'm getting my hair done again on Friday (it's been far too long, being a student sucks when getting your hair done costs $110 here, let alone in the city where it's double that price). So I'm thinking I'll get it a little lighter for summer... about this shade.

And finally, I'm in love with vintage suitcases. I neeeed to go thrift shopping and buy some. Don't they just look awesome as decor? And you can use them as storage! Win-win!

Ahh... it feels good to have my creativity back.

Keep Breathing

When did growing up start to become so hard? Where was the transition from school kid to full blown adult who has to deal with problems yourself? I don't remember it happening.

Being an adult sucks. You have to worry when you're an adult.

Currently I'm worrying about where on earth I'm going to live next year. My flatmates, who I thought were friends, end up saying they don't want to flat with me next year. Oh, but they're staying in the flat that I found for them. No sweat. But if I were to stay, they'd easily move. Their reason? I'm sad. Heh. a) I had surgery this semester, b) my aunt is actually DYING and c) I have no one to talk to. Would have been nice to have someone to talk to, no? Some support maybe? Selfish.

So when I get back from my summer job, I get to sleep on a friends couch and try and find a flat that needs me. I finish work pretty much the week before I start classes. When am I going to be able to do that? To find a bed, a room, a life?

Things would be so much easier if I weren't by myself.

But I guess life happens, right? You have to get through it one way or the other. Hopefully some good will eventually come my way. Maybe my karma will change. I've always been good to people, yet nothing good really comes my way.